MY BLOODY VALENTINE

Your picture is still on my wall. A little black cloud in a dress, with your chrome heart shining in the sun- So pretty when you're unfaithful to me. You don't look different but you have changed.

It's coming on Christmas, they're cutting down trees, they're putting up reindeer. It's so cold in this house. I can't stand the rain against my window. The bed's too big without you. I'll be sleeping with the television on,talking to the shadows from one o'clock till four, thinking of how it used to be. It's a desperate situation. All I percieve is wasted and broken. Yeah we still go to dinner sometimes, but we dont sneak a kiss when the waitress turns around. I've been forgotten. You don't love me and I know now. Nothing hurts like someone who knows everything about you leaving you behind.

Everybody's high on consolation. Who would've thought that a boy like me would come to this? I go walkin' after midnight doing anything just to get you off my mind. Confidentially, I never had much pride. But I rock a bar stool and I drink for two. And then the jukebox plays a song I used to know:

"I used to fart under the covers and she'd just laugh. She even cleaned my balls when we'd take a bath."

There's always something there to remind me. I saw two shooting stars last night- I wished on them, but they were only satellites. Is it wrong to wish on space hardware? It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time. Did you stand me? No, not at all. Tell me, where did you sleep last night?

Oh shit. Dont speak. Shut up. Cause I know all about it. You keep lyin' when you oughta be truthin'. Heard it from a friend who heard it from a friend who heard it from another you been messin' around. Your cheatin' heart, headed for the cheatin' side of town. Kind of Evil, make me wanna grab my submachine.

You thout you could keep this shit from me? Into the amrs od Mr. Rebound- That alley - cat - coat - wearin' crumbcake, Like a matador with his pork sword. You swallow his kids? Lookee here honey - You dont need to be coy. Why'd ya do it? What cha gonna say now? Lift me up, hold me , just like you told me you was gunna do. That's what I thought- you're PITIFUL.

I wish I was as mellow as, for instance, Jackson Browne, but "fountain of sorrow" my ass, mother fucker. Ive lost my equulibirum, my car keys, and my pride. There's only so much wine you can drink in one life, , but it will never be enough to save you from the bottom of your glass. I'm glad that you're sorry, but it's too late now, baby. Now it's too late. Cry me a river. Here's a quarter, call someone who cares.

Wait. Give me my money back you bitch. And dont forget to give me back my black t-shirt. Take my picture off the wall. Give me back my T.V. I don't wanna walk around with you. I dont like a thing about your mother and I hate your daddy's guts too. Tell your dog to bite my leg. I wish that for just one time, you can stand in my shoes - you'd know what a drag it is to see you. You're just .... a fuck. I can't explain it, cause I think you suck. I'm taking pride in telling you to fuck off and die. Die, die my darling. Just shut your pretty mouth. Dont call me anymore. AND THE NEXT TIME YOUR ASS GETS HORNY, GO FUCK ONE OF YOUR FUNKY-ASS FRIENDS.

I'd show you everywhere you're wrong, but I'm never talking to you again. If the phone doesn't ring, you'll know it's me.

Loveless,
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