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I look back. I look back and i dont see you.
Your gone. Way past gone.
Your lost. You'll never be found. Well not by me.
You broke me. You hurt me. I never knew you like that.
You made me feel like shit. I can never get over it.
I can never get over you.
I dont know why.
I never knew goodbye could be this painfull.
Now i wake and feel dead. Now i have to cut just to feel alive.
I thought i would never have to be alone.
I have no where to go. So i guess i wont go.
I'll be on my own. Till the day someone comes and takes me away.
I cant believe i kissed you goodbye. Our history has been lost.
I needed you to stand up tall. To keep my head up high.
Nothing yu say now will change my mind.
I believe all your lies. Once. Never agian.
I know i've said that before but i mean it today.
No one has seen me this down sense that day he died.
I'm never saying your name agina. Only to say that you were one of my happiest and saddiest mistakes i've made.
I'll quiet writing these stupid poems about how we could've been.
I know it will never be, Now. It never was going to be.
I can finally say i do hate you Ashliy Annabelle Ball.
But then agian i'll alwyas love you, Which is the fucking sad part.