have you ever

have you ever just wanted to put the gun to your head and pull the trigger
have you ever wanted to stay home alone and cry all day
have you ever felt so alone and thought there was no possible reason you should be alive
have you ever ran away from your life just because some things got too rough
have you ever went into a deep state of depression
have you ever put a fake smile on just so no one would ask you whats wrong
have you ever broke down crying cause you know your going to loose the one you love
have you ever just wished that you could rewind your life
have you ever been hurt so bad you want to die
have you ever wanted to end your life over something so stupid
i have
i have been through all of this and never want to go back
its hard to imagine yourself being suicidal until you actually are
i have seen the unseen and done things im not proud of
i have cut my self so deep the bleeding took hours to stop
i have realized that suicide is never the answer
i went un cured, never told anyone, and kept it all to myself
i thought that no one cared, loved or needed me
i wanted to end my life on the spot, wanted to take away all of the pain
then i realized that the pain you feel is the pain that your putting on yourself
poeple do care, love, and need you
you just havent realized that one day you may be the change
in the world that saves us all