I'm Sorry

When we were younger, I wanted to hate you
I wanted to make you feel what I felt because of you
I wanted you to feel my pain
I wanted you to see my scars
I just wanted you to care

I remember you hurt me
You were relentless, you never minded
All those things you said to me were all so awful minded
You never told me you loved me
You never made me smile
You never even apologized for all the crap you said
All I wanted was your approval
But those words etched in my head:
I hate you, you’re disgusting, you’re stupid, fat, and you’re ugly
It seemed like I was always in your way
I never even had to try
All you had to do was see me, and I would be despised

But I’m writing this to tell you
That I want to put that behind me
If you’d only just utter those three syllables, I’m Sorry