Out of the Picture

I've told him countless times
To forget about me
And go with her
Because it would make
His life easier
With me out of
The picture.
But each time he said
He couldn't live with himself
If he did that.
And I'd feel grateful
That he hasn't left me
Yet.
But this time,
He has made his decision
To go with her.
And that's when I realize
That I don't want him to go
That I never want him to go
But I'd sound selfish
If I told him that.
So I just agree with his decision,
And be God's good little girl.
And when he's not looking,
I break down and cry
My little heart out
Until it stops beating
Until the pain dissipates
Until he forgets about me
And continues his life
With me out of
The picture...