Drifting Away Into Madness

He spends his time
On vodka and meth
Drinking away the pain
Living in his own haze
Just when I thought
He was perfect
It all fell apart
And nothing made sense
Your arms and your words
Were comforting things
Making my heart wonder
Letting me take a chance
Safe in your embrace
I could feel no pain
And I could forget
About the hurt and the fear
That he would no longer be
And I could no longer breathe
I didn't know it was all a lie
That you were running back to her
Faster and stronger this time
Like your life depended on it
Lips touching lips
Lies sealed with a kiss
A bruised heart made broken
And so I ran away in years
I thought you meant it
When you said you'd never hurt me
But I lost all trust for you
Destruction and arguments
The agony like someone tearing at my skin
It burned fresh and hot
As tears fell from my eyes
And I cried until I drifted off
The knife you wanted
To drag across your wrist
To take away the guilt
Of breaking my heart
Now in a rush of apologies
And actions to save you
And the kindness I've always known
I don't know what to believe
And I am empty of sanity
As I mend my broken heart
And wish I could forget it all