Wretched hell

I love how you say you’ll listen… help…
But when I cry out to you, you never respond.
Why is it that I always help other but never myself?
And it always ends up like this.
I try and try to stop but I just can’t.
I want to stop being this monster that I am and break free from this
wretched hell.
Be able to be free from this monster I have become.
Be the happy loving person that I truly am.
But for now I’m stuck like this.