Inside and out

Inside I am torn apart
So outside is where I now start
Under my skin I can't see what's wrong
But on top I can watch till the hurt is gone
So i'll make a cut, or three, or four
and watch my blood fall to the floor
It hurts but there's no tears to cry
I need the hurt, it gets me by
I search for it everyday,
another chance to feel that pain
I won't let this vicious cycle end
Till I make the outside match the in.