Smiles

I miss you so much,
I wish you wouldnt have left.
I would die for you to be back,
and me hugging you.
If there's a God then Im letting him go,
all for you too come back.
I'm all alone,
what if I still care.
I don't want to be tortured any more,
I will fall fast asleep,
and all alone,
the nightmares I see frighten me.
You are gone,
but forever I smile.
Just the memory of you,
keeps me afloat.
God, this smile,
I can't let it leave.
I hope if I continue to smile for you,
that you will return from guilt,
or maybe out of love.

So now I lay here still,
wishing to die quicker.
My wrists are bleeding,
no stopping it now.
I let the blood flow,
freely, freely, freely.
I want to feel more pain,
more feeling is better.
Pain is better than nothing at all,
and love is a hurtful pain.
So why did I fall,
for that sweet seductive smile?
I loved you,
you left,
do you feel alone?
I hope you die all alone,
but I don't want you too.
You deserve someone,
I just thought it would be me.
I wished it was me,
but there was always a different one.
All you said filled my soul,
and now you failed.
I love you still,
and forever for you,
I SMILE FOR YOU!!!