A Step Beyond Forsaken 6-4-11

Above them all, but below myself.
I've defeated myself, so no one else can help.
I'm just as alive as the walking dead.
I feel far behind, but I'm a step ahead.
But short of my potential.
My dark mental reflects environmental shadows of my heart as determination falls apart.
I'm so lost with slim chances to make it.
If I had a soul, would I let him take it?
The eternal damnation that would await is a fool's fate.
But a path that many take.
I now understand how they became so lost.
But I've taken the time to realize the cost.
I'll try my hand in this hell on earth.
For now I await my inspirations rebirth.