Haptephobia

Frozen
Frightened
My mind's a raging mess
Zoned out
Heart pounding
Caught forever in your kiss
Wanting
Always waiting
Can't push forward or move back
Reaching
Trying harder
To find the normalcy I lack
Horror
And loathing
We look normal at a glance
Watching
And wondering
Can't bear to hold your hand
Gasping
Lungs collapsing
Heavy breathing at your touch
Warnings
Try to back away
But I want you far too much
Lies
Desperation
So badly want you to enjoy me
Tears
Broken endings
This is all there'll ever be