When Love Becomes More Than You Thought It Was
When love becomes more than what you thought it was, think of the letter in your hand, the strange feeling inside you that trembles in your fingertips. Become one with the thought of living just for one. Happiness doesn’t shroud itself in pain. Misery will be the death of me when the actions suppress my emotions from running high. Will I die tonight? Will this be the end of my life? Is there no hope for the fallen; no future in the stars? No family forthcoming; no solemn remorse? Am I not what you have thought? Am I the moment in truth that is the lie? Will I become all that you want? Because all I want is you. Please come home. Please look back at what I’ve done.
Death is a midnight runner. So stay safely under covers. Follow my commands and watch as the sands of time slowly tick away. Slowly pick away at me, eating me from within. Showing me what I really am. Be not the monster. Become one with the Mon-star. Desecrate the living. Show them unforgiving relentless fury.
Come to me now. I’ll show you the way back home. The way to the heart you once knew, the soul that once possessed you. The burden that replaces everything you meant to me and more.
You were my everything, enclosed with a kiss. The message of the tragedy wrapped in a blanket for me. Now shall I take vengeance, or shall I take a seat? Watch your long stumble down a very lonesome street. Is your head held high? Can you reach the sky? Or are you the one, plagued by the sun to hit the ground, run. Run, run, run, run. You can’t get rid of me; I’m all that you have. Even though you took the best of me and threw it in the trash. I’m still here. I’ll be here when you wake up; oh god please wake her up. Show her what light is, lead her from the darkness. Take her away from the forces that torment her; making me hopeless. I know that I’ve done this to both of us.
It was the truth, the truth that killed us all. The truth that made me become what I am. The shattered repressed the watchman of a dying world, the giant of the masquerade. Fall upon the sun. Burn what we cannot touch.
Cascade into nothing, because there is only comfort there. While you find yourself think of the time when you knew who you were. The time when I would hold you and life would stand still. The time when the world would stop so we could catch the rain falling for us. Through the winter storm when the cold nipped at your face, remember when you found refuge in my arms. It was love that warmed me. And in turn you. Passion sparked the flame that flickered in the wind, not lust.
Now look at you. With your face hung low, shriveled into a skeletal figure. You! with your outstretched palms, on your knees, begging for mercy. Why should I show you what you so gracefully held from me? Why should I think twice about caring for someone who has wronged me so? Why? Out of pity?
Falling like the dream with no bottom in sight. You stood with arms crossed, looking for an answer that never came. I don’t have the answers to life. All I know is that when I wake up and the sun is blinding me, I have made it through another life without you. Do you know what it’s like to be afraid to sleep? Sleep brings you to my forefront. Sleep brings you within reach, and when I wake up, there you are not. I reach in my slumber for you, and nothing. Just a fool grabbing air!
Do you know what I’ve become? The smile on my face only hides the monster I’ve become. This isn’t a game anymore. I’m not your plaything. It’s not a playground, it’s my heart!
Stop!
Stop the bleeding. Stop stabbing my heart with the dagger of your presence. I’m the dead, reaped from my body and thrown into the depths of despair by your childish mind. Your misplaced trust in nothing. I was your first, last, and only someone. I was your past present and future. You threw it away for nothing. You threw it away for a childish crush on someone far away.
Now I have what you had. My life is slowly becoming bigger than you, and I’m scared. I don’t want to be without you. All I think about is you; and you alone. I call her your name. I speak to her like I did to you. I sing her songs that I write for you, because she is just like you. Except for 1 thing; she accepts me for me. She understands why I do certain things. She doesn’t mind the things I’ve done, the things I do. She isn’t interested in the person that I was or the person that everyone wants me to be. She accepts me for me because she knows who I am and what I stand for.
She knows that I’m the Saint and the Crow. She knows that I am the light and the darkness. She knows that I’m everything she wants and needs. She knows that I will take care of her no matter what, and she knows that all I ask for in return in an undying love.
I thought she was you, because that’s what you pretended to be.
One lie in a sea of truths rippled into a title wave of heartache and misery. We could’ve avoided all of this by one simple talk. All you had to do was talk to me. Speak the truth. Tell me what I was doing wrong and I would’ve changed it in a flash, but no. You decided to throw me aside like a broken toy. Nobody is perfect. I have my flaws and so do you, but it’s left up to the one you love to accept those flaws and help you change them.
If you’re still reading this just know that I still love you and I always will. Please just come back and I’ll make it better. I’ll cast aside myself and start over. I’ll mold myself to your image. I’ll be everything you want me to be and more. All you have to do is say the word and we can go back to where we were this time last year. To the love we shared. To the sparkle in your eye and the wink that put it there. You will always be my Princess and my Universe.
Love Always,
The Jaguar
Death is a midnight runner. So stay safely under covers. Follow my commands and watch as the sands of time slowly tick away. Slowly pick away at me, eating me from within. Showing me what I really am. Be not the monster. Become one with the Mon-star. Desecrate the living. Show them unforgiving relentless fury.
Come to me now. I’ll show you the way back home. The way to the heart you once knew, the soul that once possessed you. The burden that replaces everything you meant to me and more.
You were my everything, enclosed with a kiss. The message of the tragedy wrapped in a blanket for me. Now shall I take vengeance, or shall I take a seat? Watch your long stumble down a very lonesome street. Is your head held high? Can you reach the sky? Or are you the one, plagued by the sun to hit the ground, run. Run, run, run, run. You can’t get rid of me; I’m all that you have. Even though you took the best of me and threw it in the trash. I’m still here. I’ll be here when you wake up; oh god please wake her up. Show her what light is, lead her from the darkness. Take her away from the forces that torment her; making me hopeless. I know that I’ve done this to both of us.
It was the truth, the truth that killed us all. The truth that made me become what I am. The shattered repressed the watchman of a dying world, the giant of the masquerade. Fall upon the sun. Burn what we cannot touch.
Cascade into nothing, because there is only comfort there. While you find yourself think of the time when you knew who you were. The time when I would hold you and life would stand still. The time when the world would stop so we could catch the rain falling for us. Through the winter storm when the cold nipped at your face, remember when you found refuge in my arms. It was love that warmed me. And in turn you. Passion sparked the flame that flickered in the wind, not lust.
Now look at you. With your face hung low, shriveled into a skeletal figure. You! with your outstretched palms, on your knees, begging for mercy. Why should I show you what you so gracefully held from me? Why should I think twice about caring for someone who has wronged me so? Why? Out of pity?
Falling like the dream with no bottom in sight. You stood with arms crossed, looking for an answer that never came. I don’t have the answers to life. All I know is that when I wake up and the sun is blinding me, I have made it through another life without you. Do you know what it’s like to be afraid to sleep? Sleep brings you to my forefront. Sleep brings you within reach, and when I wake up, there you are not. I reach in my slumber for you, and nothing. Just a fool grabbing air!
Do you know what I’ve become? The smile on my face only hides the monster I’ve become. This isn’t a game anymore. I’m not your plaything. It’s not a playground, it’s my heart!
Stop!
Stop the bleeding. Stop stabbing my heart with the dagger of your presence. I’m the dead, reaped from my body and thrown into the depths of despair by your childish mind. Your misplaced trust in nothing. I was your first, last, and only someone. I was your past present and future. You threw it away for nothing. You threw it away for a childish crush on someone far away.
Now I have what you had. My life is slowly becoming bigger than you, and I’m scared. I don’t want to be without you. All I think about is you; and you alone. I call her your name. I speak to her like I did to you. I sing her songs that I write for you, because she is just like you. Except for 1 thing; she accepts me for me. She understands why I do certain things. She doesn’t mind the things I’ve done, the things I do. She isn’t interested in the person that I was or the person that everyone wants me to be. She accepts me for me because she knows who I am and what I stand for.
She knows that I’m the Saint and the Crow. She knows that I am the light and the darkness. She knows that I’m everything she wants and needs. She knows that I will take care of her no matter what, and she knows that all I ask for in return in an undying love.
I thought she was you, because that’s what you pretended to be.
One lie in a sea of truths rippled into a title wave of heartache and misery. We could’ve avoided all of this by one simple talk. All you had to do was talk to me. Speak the truth. Tell me what I was doing wrong and I would’ve changed it in a flash, but no. You decided to throw me aside like a broken toy. Nobody is perfect. I have my flaws and so do you, but it’s left up to the one you love to accept those flaws and help you change them.
If you’re still reading this just know that I still love you and I always will. Please just come back and I’ll make it better. I’ll cast aside myself and start over. I’ll mold myself to your image. I’ll be everything you want me to be and more. All you have to do is say the word and we can go back to where we were this time last year. To the love we shared. To the sparkle in your eye and the wink that put it there. You will always be my Princess and my Universe.
Love Always,
The Jaguar