Conflicting Feelings

The time has come
for me to decide
do i follow what i know?
or run and hide

This world is cruel
i understand that now
do i follow my heart
and commit this vow

But at what cost
do i pay
for following my heart
will it lead to dismay

These words do not come easy
they come with confusion and worry
I shouldn't dread on the past
and yet each day I'm always sorry

I cannon decide
if this world i see is true
It comes back to haunt me
why do i still like you?

This is punishment
why does it burn
i want to move on
something you cannot learn

And yet with each passing day
the felling grows and dies
it pulls me down
into the dark black skies

Should i fear my hearts do will
hide it all and shut it down
do i allow my hearts do will?
and listen to the sweet new sound

I'm sick of this conflict
this war inside
this pain is so bad
i feel as if i have died

I cannot fight
i think its too late
a world unfair
a cruel twist of fate

Tonight i decide
To follow my heart or mind
Close my eyes into darkness
I fear to what i will find