Waking Up

Its 7 AM and it's raining and I can’t sleep
My eyes are so dry I don’t think that I can weep
Flashbacks of you, dealin with heartbreak
I can’t believe that you still keep me awake

I try so hard and my eyes just won’t shut
This drama could be a movie here’s the director’s cut
My stomach hurts and I think that it needs food
Sorry if this gets dirty but I just have to be crude

I tell you all the things I’ve got to say
You take my breath away

Don’t play with my heart
Because I’m not a game

Try and keep it all inside
I cannot hide

I turn around
And leave you in the dust

I gotta move on, I gotta try
Because there’s more to waking up then wakin up to cry
Don’t know why I stayed so long
This ain’t where I belong

Take another breath, don’t hesitate
Because with every move you make you resuscitate
Me
Let’s wait and see how far my heart falls
Not even you can save me with your phone calls

I can no longer deal with this
I’m an abyss

An empty shell of a person
Look at what you’ve done

You try to get me back
You must be whack

Everyone gets one chance with me
And you screwed up
Fuck,

Don’t know what to fuckin say
But the list could go on all day
All the shit you put me through
The way I fuckin cling to you

I can’t believe
And you can’t conceive
We try and talk
But I just turn and walk
Fuck it

I can’t even call it pain
It’s not the same

See this person right here?
Yeah, he was yours

But then you threw him out
What was that about?

I guess I can’t make you happy enough
Its okay, I’ll find the diamond in the rough

So much for walkin hand in hand
Like we planned

There’s no telling what the fuck I’ll do next
All I can see is this fuckin page of text
You don’t give a shit and I thought you would
Thought you could love something no one ever could

Damn, I’m not playin a game
I take aim
My prize I claim
It aint the same
No one to blame

They say dreams can come true
They should get a clue

Nobody can dream and make it real
There’s always the one person who doesn’t feel, the same
They always pick you up to let you down
There’s no erasing my fuckin frown

Damn it I never win
It’s time to give in

It’s the last risk I’ll ever take
I feel like my life is a fuckin mistake
I best be leavin for my sake
But then I wake

It’s all a dream
My life is great
At least at this rate

This shit is getting to my brain
All the fuckin pain

I feel it in my endless nights
All the fuckin fights

It’s time to wake up forever
All ties will be severed
I’m not ready to let go
So I hold on a little longer
Who knows maybe I will grow stronger

But man all I fuckin hear are voices
Of regret and of haunting choices

But I just have to clear my mind
And then myself I’ll find
Now if you’d be so kind
Let me be myself

I’m fuckin done with this shit
I open my fuckin eyes and this is it
Time to show the world what I can be
Time to show the world that this is me