Mama I Lied

I woke up sad again
tired from a rough night
dizzy from the pain
hot in these long sleeves

I lost a lot last night
I hurt myself again mama
but you don't know that
cuz mama I lied

I cried myself asleep again
sad because of the evil
eyes puffy from the tears
blind in this closed eyes

I cried last night mama
my pillow was soaked
but you don't know that
cuz mama I lied

I wrapped my arm in ribbon again
angry because they're infected
puffy from the bite of the razor
hurting under the linon and lace

I stained the sheets mama
the white turned red
but you don't know that
cuz mama I lied

I hid the blades again
stowed them away
so you couldn't find them
hiding in the perfect place

I stored the good mama
under the mattress
but you don't know that
cuz mama I lied

I cut too deap
the pain wasn't enough
bleeding cus of the pressure
I felt so good

I killed myself mama
it was an accident
but you don't know that
cuz mama I lied