The Cure's Within

Pressing down gently
Feeling the blade’s bite
The ecstasy
The sweet pain
The swift, quick motion
Splitting skin from skin
Not deep enough to kill
The vibrant colored liquid
That carries life within
Is now on the surface
As it pours out so does the pain
The stress
The numbness
The fatigue
Until all that is left is me
Who I am at my core
All my lies
All my acts
Are stripped away
In sweet
Ecstatic pain
Better than drugs
Better than alcohol
And it’s already within
I just need a blade
To let it out
To let it pour
Long shallow cuts
The goal
Is the pain
The high
The sting
Not death
Or scars
Or a “look”
My friends scold,
They don’t understand
Not that they’d try to