Lonely

One tear
One thought
Every fear
Every time I've fought.

I've fought for you
I've went against them all
Does it even go through
Can you even recall?

Recall the times we were together
You held me closely
With every touch and every letter
I gave you my heart but you just hold it loosely.

You let it slip right onto the floor
Do you even notice?
Do you notice as I walk towards the door
My jaw clenches and my hands make fists.

Resisting the urge to cry,
The urge to show you my heart
I don't even know if I should try
Because I never know what it's going to start.

When the yelling begins
And I scream in rage
I have to keep up my defense
Suppressing the pain.

I bite my lip
I walk away
Hoping for a glimpse
That you'll ask me to stay.