Sick Little Games

What happened?
We used to be so close
I still have that picture
Of us playing pirates in the backyard
I was just in diapers
Back then life was easy, not hard
I remember the childhood we shared
Back then you looked out for me
Back then you care

You used to protect me
From dad
You’d get between us
And stop the fights
You talked me out of
Running away some nights

When we were younger
We would play with bugs
But with age, this changed
And you got me started on drugs
The drugs brought us
Closer together at first
They let me escape from
My problems for a while
But as things got worse
My thoughts turned suicidal

When you found out
I knew you wouldn’t understand
But I wasn’t ready
For the things you said

You might as well have told me
To kill myself
That’s that what I wanted to do
And you said “who cares?
Get over it! Boo woo!”
I just needed a reason not to end it
But instead you gave me a reason to

Eventually you took it back
And said “I love you”
And I said “I love you too”
Once again you were not just my brother
But also my friend
But then
You did it again

Why do you play
These games with me?
Do you want me to relapse again?
It’s just a game for you
We used to play so carefree
But now it’s a game
Were you get pleasure
Out of my misery
I don't know what of that
Friendship we had remains
But I am done with your
Sick little games