I'm looking up!

After all these years,
Of young blood and define breathing,
leads up to one moment,
the birth of you finally looking up!

The soul,
the death,
the nights alone, all i ever do is be on the phone!

Tears fall from my cheek, and ends up in the ocean,
you know how i fill, and you know whats coming!
The birth of a new life,
The birth of a new lie!

So i lay here thinking "Are things looking up?"
Because the dream left so long ago, how can i fill the pain and misery you put me through!
I'm always wrong, but your never right!

When the birth, of a new me, is here!
The pain and misery will be gone, and the gates of hell will be opened,
but only upon one person,
You!

This very sad dream, is about to come to reality, and i don't mess around!
When we've crossed the world, but only know small things, this dream isn't worth fighting for!

Could i, or would you give me easy?
That's something we both don't know!
Go is left to make that choice!

God handles our lives, to a point, and then he lets the real you come out!
He handles are body motion against others, so if you fight,
He controls your body strength,
and whether your hurt the other person or not!
God controls if people get killed,
And let that truth be set free!

But when god handles our lives,
He only handles are strengths, not our mouths,
You control your emotions, and what you say,
But now, you mouth,
your emotions,
your strengths are nothing compared to me,
Nothing!

You take for granted what was good in life, and you turned it against yourself!
I can say,
God wont be controlling anything on me,
I'm now in control,
And that's how it's going to be!

So with all that misery that has been said,
You better start looking up,
cause i'm coming for you!
And god is not going to control me!
I'm myself now!