Alone

I am right now alone.
I wish I could be alive and exciting.
I wish I could spend time with people, but I can't because I am horrible.
I wish I could help others, I wish I couldn’t be mean but I will lose what I love and keep what I hate.
Maybe I am not completely alone but I’m afraid that the day will come for when I will die and I might just spend eternity looking for the one thing I love and will never find.