The End

I sit here starting at my reflection
Seeing you behind me

I’m crying
I can’t seem to stop
I look down to my chest
And see bare skin
The black heart you gave me gone forever!

It just makes me cry more
I want to think of how we had something so real! So Genuine!
And how you lied!
How you told me you no longer loved me!
All because of the military, how you thought I would never follow you

I scream frustrated, upset!
I want to cut myself to forget
But I promised I wouldn’t
I can’t break that promise

As I cry more and more
I get a text from a friend
“I don’t think tonight will work.”
My eyes tear even more

“I am so lonely”

Ever since you left all the lonely nights add up
What makes it even worse is:
I know you spend yours with her
Touching her lips, brushing back her hair with your hand
Holding her in your warm embrace

I can no longer control the crying, its to much
I can’t bring myself to hate you
For all that you put me through
I know that by tomorrow I will still love you
I know that I will always love you

I did not know it then
But when I uttered those words
“You are my one and only”
How much I truly meant it

Sometimes I get scared that I lost that love
But then I come back to these moments
Crying staring at my reflection
I see that I haven’t
I see that I am still so much in love with you and how much I miss you

I just want the man I love back
I know you did this for my well being
But honestly its only making me a wreck

People wait their whole lives for this
And sadly you letting it slip away

Sure you may not have been the hottest,
The most buff or the smartest man out there
But I loved you for you
And I realized that I can’t stop you from living your dream
I just wish you would have realized how much I meant it
When I said:
I would follow you.

Our dreams may have been different
But that would never change my love

Not then, not now, not ever!

…please come back

Sadly I know you will never see or hear these words for they are all in my head and I am too scared of how these thoughts would affect our friendship to ever tell you or show you. I will always be by your side, you true love