When All Is Lost...

When all is lost,
Try not to give up.
These words ring in my mind,
Giving me just a tab bit of hope.
It dies out soon though,
Along with every feeling in my being.
When all is gone,
I try to be numb,
I try to block the feelings that arise,
But it doesn't work.
The pain sets in,
The tears flow,
I am helpless in this state.
With no one around, I steel myself away,
And show a fake happiness,
In which people buy.
When all is dead,
I shall be in peace.
No one to love,
And to forever remain loveless.
That's the lesson I will learn,
With every broken moment.
I have a feeling,
That love is just a useless word,
That has never,
And will never,
Exist.