Forever Is Not Just A Word
You have no clue how much I love you…
I may say words that sting and bring pain…
The only reason I do this is because of the painful things you
always have a way of saying to me whether you mean them or not..
I try to refrain because in the end it gets us no where
except farther from where we want to be…
I belong to you.. its still remains in question if you belong to me..
I cannot help I love you unconditionally…
for your sake this I tried to hide…
You asked me to be just your friend…
So I know I did lie..
I will always be your friend.. but its hard to separate the two..
I have loved you forever it seems… not a moment did I ever want to
spend without you…
People tell me to move on..
that this love simply cannot be…
The hurt I bring to you..
The hurt you bring to me..
It is only because of obstacles we both have to overcome..
I am scared but willing…
How about you…
Nothing ventured nothing gained..
In my heart you always remain..
I wish this battle was at its end…
and in your arms I could wake up and say WE win..
You are not perfect and neither am I..
but for me you are the only guy…
I know im crazy at times and so are you…
Perfectly imperfect and crazy for the one who
My heart constantly reminds me I am meant to be with..
Not a moment goes by that I do not wish…
Simply to be with you…
In a perfect world…
I would wake up to gaze into your loving brown eyes…
but I fear you have to learn to love yourself first..
to let go of the demons that haunt you…
and realize.. I never left.. nor do I ever really leave..and
By the gods man I am not her..
I get mad and write things I never mean…
I am not like anyone from your past
and at times I fear you have me all wrong…
I know you can read people.. but you are so used
to reading people with bad or selfish intentions..
I begin to wonder if you can ever see what is good..
I know you are scared.. I know that I am worth it
and pray endlessly…
Hope never ending ever so relentlessly that some day
you will realize I wont ever leave you and I wish you would
quit leaving me..
I want us to stop hurting each other and be happy…
as I know we could be…
I know trust is hard… For the both of us…
Every time we start to trust each other.. something goes
horribly wrong and again we fight… I don't want to fight anymore..
I want to be everything to you as you may not believe but you already
are to me…
I know you are not prepared.. you tell me not to wait for something that
may never happen..
but I choose to because the revelation I have had is without you…
I feel so incomplete.. like a huge part of me is missing…
I don't care about the difference in our age and background…
I could give two cents what people say…
You have and always will be worth it until my dying day…
Like in the movie Avatar.. I see you… and long for the
day you will truly see me…
Until then what can I say..
I live only for that day and everything I do
goes to make us one day happier for all of my financial preparations..
You see I never want you to long for anything and not be able to have it
I never want you to go without…
Maybe its wrong.. but I don't care anymore about my hurt feelings.. they come and go.. I wish somehow some way I could make you understand how much I love you.. and if you asked forever I would stay.. Because forever is how long
I will love you… My heart has made its choice.. You are my one true love..
and if I am not yours so be it.. I just want you to be happy and I mean it…
I will always be where you can find me…
I never want to lose you from my life…
If I am lucky one day we will live, learn and grow together…
even if right now are paths seem so far apart…
I cant be with anyone but you..
Don't you see its simply not fair..
I will always compare them to you..
and they will always be lacking that
special ingredient that makes you .. you..
and in the end I will always hurt them and its simply unfair..
So despite your telling me to move on…
and everyone else too…
I regret to inform you…
Its something I just cannot do…
Forever is how long I promise…
My heart shall remain true…
Its not just a word you see..
but a solemn vow from me to you…
I love you…
and I am sorry if I ever gave you cause to believe that it would ever not be that way.. we both have our insecurities.. and losing you has always been my biggest fear and greatest weakness..
I may say words that sting and bring pain…
The only reason I do this is because of the painful things you
always have a way of saying to me whether you mean them or not..
I try to refrain because in the end it gets us no where
except farther from where we want to be…
I belong to you.. its still remains in question if you belong to me..
I cannot help I love you unconditionally…
for your sake this I tried to hide…
You asked me to be just your friend…
So I know I did lie..
I will always be your friend.. but its hard to separate the two..
I have loved you forever it seems… not a moment did I ever want to
spend without you…
People tell me to move on..
that this love simply cannot be…
The hurt I bring to you..
The hurt you bring to me..
It is only because of obstacles we both have to overcome..
I am scared but willing…
How about you…
Nothing ventured nothing gained..
In my heart you always remain..
I wish this battle was at its end…
and in your arms I could wake up and say WE win..
You are not perfect and neither am I..
but for me you are the only guy…
I know im crazy at times and so are you…
Perfectly imperfect and crazy for the one who
My heart constantly reminds me I am meant to be with..
Not a moment goes by that I do not wish…
Simply to be with you…
In a perfect world…
I would wake up to gaze into your loving brown eyes…
but I fear you have to learn to love yourself first..
to let go of the demons that haunt you…
and realize.. I never left.. nor do I ever really leave..and
By the gods man I am not her..
I get mad and write things I never mean…
I am not like anyone from your past
and at times I fear you have me all wrong…
I know you can read people.. but you are so used
to reading people with bad or selfish intentions..
I begin to wonder if you can ever see what is good..
I know you are scared.. I know that I am worth it
and pray endlessly…
Hope never ending ever so relentlessly that some day
you will realize I wont ever leave you and I wish you would
quit leaving me..
I want us to stop hurting each other and be happy…
as I know we could be…
I know trust is hard… For the both of us…
Every time we start to trust each other.. something goes
horribly wrong and again we fight… I don't want to fight anymore..
I want to be everything to you as you may not believe but you already
are to me…
I know you are not prepared.. you tell me not to wait for something that
may never happen..
but I choose to because the revelation I have had is without you…
I feel so incomplete.. like a huge part of me is missing…
I don't care about the difference in our age and background…
I could give two cents what people say…
You have and always will be worth it until my dying day…
Like in the movie Avatar.. I see you… and long for the
day you will truly see me…
Until then what can I say..
I live only for that day and everything I do
goes to make us one day happier for all of my financial preparations..
You see I never want you to long for anything and not be able to have it
I never want you to go without…
Maybe its wrong.. but I don't care anymore about my hurt feelings.. they come and go.. I wish somehow some way I could make you understand how much I love you.. and if you asked forever I would stay.. Because forever is how long
I will love you… My heart has made its choice.. You are my one true love..
and if I am not yours so be it.. I just want you to be happy and I mean it…
I will always be where you can find me…
I never want to lose you from my life…
If I am lucky one day we will live, learn and grow together…
even if right now are paths seem so far apart…
I cant be with anyone but you..
Don't you see its simply not fair..
I will always compare them to you..
and they will always be lacking that
special ingredient that makes you .. you..
and in the end I will always hurt them and its simply unfair..
So despite your telling me to move on…
and everyone else too…
I regret to inform you…
Its something I just cannot do…
Forever is how long I promise…
My heart shall remain true…
Its not just a word you see..
but a solemn vow from me to you…
I love you…
and I am sorry if I ever gave you cause to believe that it would ever not be that way.. we both have our insecurities.. and losing you has always been my biggest fear and greatest weakness..