You Know You're Self-Deceived When...

I am free
I am fine
I am ready
These are my favored insecurities
My beloved mistakes
You think you can?
You want what's impossible?
The mind is the greatest liar
Every wish, every desire that you think up?
It's like bending steel with your hands--
Impossible

You can, you can...

You can't, you can't.
So why even believe?
Is it the beauty of the dream,
Or the loving escape of reality?
For me, it's the esteem of being,
Doing,
What I love
What I know is never going to be.

You will, you will...

You may, you may.
But are you sure?
Are you certain, for real?
You can't do it, you're not meant to.
It's just not who you are;
Spineless
Wretched
A waste of time
Talk all you want, think you're better than before
But are you? No!
You're the same, ordinary
Plain and boring as white.
You can't and you wont, so
Don't believe your mind's selfish lies.

Don't listen, don't listen...

Dont you dare tune me out.
You're nothing greater than what you make yourself
Which is nothing, for you,
You've dont nothing, you are nothing.
Then why be surprised that you're
Depressed, unholy?
Explain that for me?
You'll never take what you want
So why even try?
If you are what you say, you'd not be a liar.
You'd be alive.
Can you live like this now?

You're fine, you're fine...

No, don't lie.
Have we learned nothing yet
About the timeless faces of falsities?
Stop with the filth that you spit every time.
The venom you hide behind your lips.
The same that gushes through your veins
Pumping from you're chrome heart.
It's poisoned, you know
Just like you are.

You're okay, you're okay...

Never again will I lie, its not for my mental health, and
Nothing is more deadly than doubting yourself