Affection

What a horrible feeling pain can be
Though when you look in my eyes
Pain is all you see
Yet you still believe all the lies

Everything that haunts me
Eats me alive
I can't seem to process
All these feelings I seem to hide

I want to be loved
Though I can't stand to feel
It's like a white dove
Although made out steel

I yearn for that touch
So it can take this away
I feel like it will be to much
That I will want to stay

Yes I am a coward
But I have a reason
I believe I would be devoured
By the thing I am seizing

I can be crushed
I hope I have the will
I lay my cards down hoping it's not a bust
Praying and completly still

My heart still in pain
But I won't let it go
Hopefully I dont go insane
But, if I do, maybe it won't show

By: nana_loves_you