A Mess

I want to hide from the shame
Even though you are to blame
How you make me feel
It makes me want to escape

I don’t know how to feel, this is what I fear
Thinking too much, I need my head clear
What am I doing right now?
And why do I care?

I’m so sick of the anger
I no longer want to be the avenger
My mind is a mess
And I need to know...What?

I’m so confused
And my hearts so bruised
I want to hold you
And I want to make you hurt

You made me hurt once upon a time
When you were ‘mine’
You pushed me away
And then contact me when I say not to

I want to tear my hair out
And scream, fucking shout!
And then curl into a ball
And cry until I can’t anymore

I hate you
I like you?
Why can’t I make up my mind?
Why won’t you leave me alone?

A mess, A mess, A mess, Everything’s a mess, A mess, My minds a mess, Mess, Mess, A mess, I’m a mess, My hearts a mess, Mess, Such a mess, A mess, A mess, A mess, Everything’s a mess, A mess, My minds a mess, Mess, Mess, A mess, I’m a mess, My hearts a mess, Mess, Such a mess, A mess, A mess, A mess, Everything’s a mess, A mess, My minds a mess, Mess, Mess, A mess, I’m a mess, My hearts a mess, Mess, Such a mess...
You have made me a mess.