The Lingering Feelings

You’re a liar
A good one at that
This much I know
And I seem to not care
For I wake up
And think
Of
You
What did you do?
Why do I fucking care for you?
Please
Please
Please
I don’t understand
And I can’t tell
What I’m thinking
How do you
Do It?
You are the only one
That has made me
Unable to
Tell how I feel
It doesn’t make sense
Why won’t you make sense?
I want to see you go
But I want to hold you close
You dumped me
And cheated the
Whole
Time
Now feed me bullshit
Lies!
Lies!
LIES!
Tell me it was a lie.
Tryna make me feel better inside?
Why?
What’s the point?
I don’t understand.
Please
Please
Please!
I’m begging
Help me to understand
I don’t know what I want
And you say friends
Isn’t that what I wanted in the end?
But will it really work
When I might feel
The way I do?
Do I actually care about you?
Or are these just
The lingering
Feelings
...
Leave me
To move on
Make up your mind
So I can make up mine.