So. Empty.

i lay here, thinking
my heart beating
wishing i never went
wanting, but cant vent
im in so much pain
trying to keep sane
wanting to beat
till they admit defeat
loving someone so much
but do they love me as much
not knowing whats going on
driving me insane from here on
tells me one thing, i read another
wishing that there will be no other
my heart grows with more ache
i dont know how much more i can take
you think those are there for you
yet they dont care, they hurt you
they lie to you, go behind your back
this hurt, im having a heart attack
im done with them, im done with it all
they sit there and laugh, as they watch me fall
if they take him from me, they will pay
ill make sure they wont see the light of day
i can only sit here and do so much
try and hope that they loose touch
i made a mistake, i admit
but who knew id have to go thru this shit
i end it with friends, i do all i can
everything he says, or what he demands
i feel so empty, so hurt, so broken
wish i never saw those words spoken
he tells me he loves me, he shows it too
but what i just saw, i dont know what to do
i sit here, tears roll down my face
my heart still beating fast pace
i cant control his dreams
i cant do much of anything
all i can do is love him like i do
and just hope thats all i have to do