Letter to The Heart Break Kid
Dear Heart Break Kid,
You love me.
You love me not.
You love me.
You love me not.
Make up your mind. I am not a toy that you get to play with. You do not get to decide when I am or when I am not good enough for you.
You told me that you were jealous when you found out that I was in a relationship. You told me that I was the first boy you ever liked, ever since he passed away. You said that he was always going to have a special place in your heart, and I accepted that. I understand that it is extremely hard just to forget about someone; how nearly impossible it is to happen. I did not, ever, want to replace him. But I wanted to be there for you.
I love you. I won’t be able to just stop loving you, because ‘love’ is not like a light switch; we cannot turn it on and turn it back off again at a whim. When you pack up your things, and take away part of my life from me, I hope you realize that somewhere, within the many pictures, and the pleasant memories – there, buried beneath the remains of our past, is my love for you.
My heart has yet to figure out that I am not supposed to love you anymore. I know that you still feel the same way for me, deep down inside. You made it seem real, so why throw away our love, the one good thing that we shared.
It will be hard to get over you. I wish there was a way that I can change your mind about the choice you are making, but I honestly do not know what to say to you anymore. I just wish you thought about this situation before you made me your boyfriend for the second time.
You love me.
You love me not.
You love me.
You love me not.
Make up your mind. I cannot wait around forever.
Sincerely,
Your Boy Toy.
P.s. third time’s the charm. keep that in mind.
You love me.
You love me not.
You love me.
You love me not.
Make up your mind. I am not a toy that you get to play with. You do not get to decide when I am or when I am not good enough for you.
You told me that you were jealous when you found out that I was in a relationship. You told me that I was the first boy you ever liked, ever since he passed away. You said that he was always going to have a special place in your heart, and I accepted that. I understand that it is extremely hard just to forget about someone; how nearly impossible it is to happen. I did not, ever, want to replace him. But I wanted to be there for you.
I love you. I won’t be able to just stop loving you, because ‘love’ is not like a light switch; we cannot turn it on and turn it back off again at a whim. When you pack up your things, and take away part of my life from me, I hope you realize that somewhere, within the many pictures, and the pleasant memories – there, buried beneath the remains of our past, is my love for you.
My heart has yet to figure out that I am not supposed to love you anymore. I know that you still feel the same way for me, deep down inside. You made it seem real, so why throw away our love, the one good thing that we shared.
It will be hard to get over you. I wish there was a way that I can change your mind about the choice you are making, but I honestly do not know what to say to you anymore. I just wish you thought about this situation before you made me your boyfriend for the second time.
You love me.
You love me not.
You love me.
You love me not.
Make up your mind. I cannot wait around forever.
Sincerely,
Your Boy Toy.
P.s. third time’s the charm. keep that in mind.