*** this

I'm trying not to show the pain that I'm hurting
& i'm trying to not to feel my heart burning, for you
because I loved you for a time, and I trusted you'd be mine
but, I guess I need to move on, I guess that would be for the best
but you were something, I can never forget
I shouldnt have loved you in that way, you didnt even stay
but I believed you, when you said you'd never leave
but look where we are now, my distorted perspective of reality changed somehow

I should've believed them, when they said, it was just for a summer, you cant tie him down
but somehow I thought you were the one, I mean I still do, I still love you
but I i shouldnt believe a word you say, but I know I will
I love you still, I wish.
but I'm moving on, or atleast i'm trying
its better than me crying, wasting my tears on boy who wouldnt stay for a year.
I know I feel this way, but its nothing like it is
I'll be waiting on the other side of the door, all you gotta do is come in
and I know youll be coming back to me, in a month or two
but I would wait for you
I would waiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit.
like I always do, you better believe me when I say
I love you, and thats never gonna change.

this wasnt supposed to be a poem. it was supposed to be a song, I guess I need to get it all down on paper.
I love you.
but you are a sketch.
and so confusing.
and I wish you knew, that you're breaking my heart.
but you dont.