To my Dad...
Do I disappoint you?
Does the smile in my face insult you?
You hurt me and bruise me
Put me down like no one else
And I smile.
It hurts, it does
The insults, the pain, the non stop comparisons to people I'll never be
People I don't want to be
Why isn't me good enough?
Have faith in me, your my dad. I love you.
Tears are dripping inside but I hold it in
Be strong kid, I tell myself, be a man.
You'll accomplish everything you ever wanted.
Prove everyone wrong and become the person I'm destined to be.
And I did it my way. Not yours.
It keeps me fighting.
Keeps me smiling, outside and inside.
I love you dad. I fucking love you no matter what.
Without you there'd be none of this.
I wouldn't be fighting. I wouldn't be smiling.
You look down on me yet I look up to you.
I'm nothing you wish me to be, everything you can't seem to see
Believe in me for once and I'll make you proud.
I aim to make you proud so I can feel proud of myself.
To give me meaning for all of this.
I love you dad....but I'm not you.
You've put me through so much and it's made me who I am today.
So I thank you for all of it.
I'll make it through and I'll do it
My way
Does the smile in my face insult you?
You hurt me and bruise me
Put me down like no one else
And I smile.
It hurts, it does
The insults, the pain, the non stop comparisons to people I'll never be
People I don't want to be
Why isn't me good enough?
Have faith in me, your my dad. I love you.
Tears are dripping inside but I hold it in
Be strong kid, I tell myself, be a man.
You'll accomplish everything you ever wanted.
Prove everyone wrong and become the person I'm destined to be.
And I did it my way. Not yours.
It keeps me fighting.
Keeps me smiling, outside and inside.
I love you dad. I fucking love you no matter what.
Without you there'd be none of this.
I wouldn't be fighting. I wouldn't be smiling.
You look down on me yet I look up to you.
I'm nothing you wish me to be, everything you can't seem to see
Believe in me for once and I'll make you proud.
I aim to make you proud so I can feel proud of myself.
To give me meaning for all of this.
I love you dad....but I'm not you.
You've put me through so much and it's made me who I am today.
So I thank you for all of it.
I'll make it through and I'll do it
My way