Cream-Filled Centers

Mirrors
only
reflect
what's
on
the
outside
of
you.

Like an Oreo cookie,
what's on the inside matters most.
It's not going to
make coherent sense to people
all the time
but this is how we are
different.
Life
would be totally boring if we were
always the
same.
Never mirror
others to gain
acceptance
For if you speak and follow your heart,
you are truly

free.

you.
of
outside
the
on
what's
reflect
only
Mirrors
♠ ♠ ♠
Lately, I've been trying too hard to get people to like me. To mirror what the world wants me to be and TRYING to fit this chipper stereotype that everyone wants me to be. I've been afraid to break out of my normal routines; afraid to say the wrong things to people. I've locked up my heart to the world, and everyone only sees this exterior, diffuse shell.

Sure. People remember my name, they know my quirky ways of getting attention. But they are only seeing this fence I put up around what matters most: my heart.

I've been more depressed than usual the past month or so, which scared me tonight when I had thoughts of suicide that hadn't really popped up in my head since maybe five years ago. Though I may have quite a few people I consider my friends, I'm not sure there are that many individuals who would sincerely care if I did push myself over the edge because I haven't been as open with other people as I used to be.