Sleepless Six-Feet Under

Once alive, way back when
I’ll hold my breath and I’ll count to ten
Hoping that you will not hurt me
Over and over.

You ripped up, my heart was dead
But you want someone who’s not me in bed
Even though I begged to reason
The pain you caused me

Now I’m dead and buried deep
Yet 6 feet under I still can’t sleep
The anger in my heart still raging
Though, now I’m gone, my soul still dreams
I know now nothing is what it seems
Although I sleep, I’ll still be running
Once you talked to me, looked at me, now I wish that you didn’t say you loved me.

I feel you soul, it once was pure
But your furious rage I could not injure
And I fear you still may hurt me
Despite time passing

I’m afraid, you monstrous beast
Look to the sun rising in the east
Look for hope for light for justice
To kill the sorrow

Once was dead and buried deep
My sun came rising to end my sleep
All that was, can’t put behind me
All the lies that hypnotized me
And now I realize that
You can’t hurt me anymore

I’ll rise above, the earth and ground
Won’t go beneath without making sound
Even though I said you’d kill me
I’ll come back, like Jesus did
Fuck, that’s blasphemies, but I’m not rid
Of the torturous pain you gave me
Once you talked to me, loved me? But I know that my pain cannot bide me.