Confused

It started, it began
The never ending twisting
My mind crushed, thoughts mixed words unable to generate through my mouth
I look, I amazed
How such can pick me
My motives done through actions
My words mumbled, my vantages disabled
I cannot see/ I cannot pass
The barriers that hold me,
That sticks to me like burrs
I’m stuck,
Admiring what could have been.
What I could have had
I am stopped
Nerves unsure
The possibility, probably
I am unable to fight
And I hope they see
That my thoughts trail
To someone specific
That one person, the only person
And I try,
Oh do I try
I try I try I try I try I try
It seems as uninteresting
Enfolded and built around me as another wall.
I propose, it is rejected, possibilities drawn when others join
LOOK AT MY THOUGHTS/ LOOK HOW I FEEL
I need to run, but if I do I lose.