When I Fell

You weren’t there when I fell,
Miles deep into that well.
Every brick I used to climb back to the surface,
Crumbled under my fingertips like fragile lace.
Changing my hair is what I know best.
Cheating is the only way to get through a test.
My life is my own,
And it’s the only one I’ve ever known.

You weren’t there when I fell,
I feel trapped in this cold prison cell.
Body art and piercing will consume my being,
I will never get over that feeling.
Freedom from you, freedom from adults, freedom from that life!
It pierces through my skin like a dull knife.
Screaming to get through to you,
Covering your hears because you know its all true.

You weren’t there when I fell,
It made my life a living hell.
I’m so afraid of rejection!
I cant even look at my own reflection!
To be perfect in everyone’s eyes,
Is the thing that I least despise.
I’m trying to let everyone see,
That I am the real me.