Tonight

Mommmy
I didn't tell you that I hurt so much inside

Mommy
I didn't let you see when I cried

Mommy
I told you it was all okay

Mommy
I didnt tell you that nightly for death I prayed

And Mommy
I never told you I saw things at night

Mommy
I never told you I tried to take my life twice

Mommy
I lied when I said I was just grumpy
Really I was just close to killing myself again

Mommy
I never told you how much it hurt when you made those little comments

Mommy
I never told you why I couldn't eat

Mommy
I never told you why I couldn't sleep that night
I never told you why I was so tired

Mommy
I never told you that it was because there was monsters in my room that night keeping me up late

Mommy
I never told you all I needed was a hug

Mommy
I never told you how much I missed Dad

Mommy
I never told you I loved you and couldn't live without you

Mommy
I wish I'd told you how bad it hurt

Mommy
I wish I could turn to you on that couch and ask for a hug

Mommy
I wish I could explain it all
but I wouldnt know where to start

Mommy
please understand its not that easy to open up my heart....