So Sorry

Sorry, dad, for being
The nuisance that I am
For getting in the way
While you're trying to smoke a gram

Sorry, dad, for trying
To hug you all the time
I guess I'll never understand
Your love just isn't mine

Sorry, dad, for being
Born into this world
I know you didn't want kids
And you don't want your little girl

Sorry, dad, for being
The person that I am
Instead of who you want
But I'm doing all I can

Sorry, dad, for all the days
I spend locked in my room
But sometimes I can't be around
Your everlasting gloom

Sorry, dad, for sitting down
When I should be doing chores
I guess I learned these things from you
While you slept around with whores

Sorry, dad, for wanting you
To actually be a dad
And wishing you'd be there for me
I know it drives you mad

Sorry, dad, for shedding tears
When you used to yell at me
I guess being weak was something
I never wanted you to see

Sorry, dad, for seeming unphased
When you lecture me these days
I guess I'm numb to all your anger
But the hurting always stays

Sorry, dad, for being
The thing that you hate most
I only hope you change your mind
When you're staring down my ghost