Enough

Enough of the pain
Enough of the fear
I can't take any more
I'm getting paranoid
I'm crazy
I can't stand it
My body broken
My mind disheveled
A viscous mess
I'm a loser
I can't do anything right
I'm incompetent
I forget what to do
I forget who I am
Enough.

I live in my head
They all love me
I live outside
They all hate me
My fixation with the intangible
Is what makes me real
I can't feel when I'm real
I feel everything when I die
I die everyday
I want no more
But I wish not to die
Can I fix this?
I think not
I think so?
I think not so
How did this happen
It's over?
Yet it goes on
Why is it not over
This book is too long
It's epic
I'd rather have a vignette
Or a short story
Or a draft
Or a paragraph
Or a sentence
Or a word
Peace.

But peace never comes
Chaos
CHAOS
CAOSH
SCAOH
SOAHC
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That is my life
Chaos
Chaos
Chaos
Chaos
Never any peace
Never will I have
I guess I guess I
I guess I guess I
I guess I have no
I guess there's no
Choice
I must live this way
I'm forced
I want to run
I need to run
But I am fettered
To this place
To this earth
To these people
These people I hate
I hate it all.
Enough of them
I hate them
Enough of hate
Enough of them
I can't stand it
I can't stand me
I'm worthless
I am nothing.

Enough
Enough
Enough
Enough
Enough
Enough
Enough
Enough
Enough
Enough
Enough
Enough
ENough
ENOugh
ENOUgh
ENOUGh
ENOUGH
ENOUGH
ENOUGH
ENOUGH
ENOUGH
ENOUGH!

enough.