Leaving An Angel From Hell.

Shit. Once again I'm writing about stupid relationships.
Once again my heart has fallen. Shattered. Bleeding. Once.
For once i will not take this out on myself.
No cuts to be made.
Because cuts don't heal when you keep cutting. Always cutting. Cutting deeper. Always deeper.
Just to bleed? For what? Someone that lied. Someone who broke my heart?
Now i know that would be stupid.
I'll just have to get over it like i did last time i let my heart fall. Fall into the hands of an angel.
An angel from hell. The devil?
The best person.
I could always talk to her.
Now she just leaves me hanging. Hanging by my neck in front of death.
Wishing that my foot would just slip. Slip so i would just be left dangling.
Out of her grasp.
She wont pull me in.
Drag me. Maybe.
Why is love or whatever this is so fucking painful?