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Two-faced,
Blue eyes meeting mine,
Like two ice shards,
Uncertain colored hair falling around your face in perfect strands,
Your beautiful,
No doubt,
But is anything left of the you i used to know?
Have you killed her off completely yet?
I remember when i was crying out for your voice,
Now im reluctant to allow your eyes to meet mine,
Soft fingers interlacing with mine,
Feminine, perfection,
Everything you were not,

Your laugh,
Falling through the air like snow hitting the ground,
Cuts through the air like a razor,
Hitting my ears and making me cringe,
Unnatural,
Not beautiful,
Were you always this way?
Maybe i wasnt smart enough to see,
Or maybe i was just blind,

Maybe ive changed?
Or is it you?
This is like a nightmare,
I remember,
Kissing your head,
Whispering promises of always loving you,
Always wanting to hold you,
Too much make up covers your face,
Where are you?

I want to see you the way you are,
Black hair,
Pale skin,
Soft blue eyes,
Is that too much?
I want to count your freckles,
No matter how much you hate them,
I want to see the beautiful girl i know is there,
Hold her in my arms,
Press my lips to hers,

I want to hear your laugh become real,
Want to hear you try to sing again,
See you so care free,
What happened?
I want you back,
I hate having to share you,
But i think thats the only way i can,
Keep you,

You keep me from being alone,
But do i still love you?
Do i still long for you?
I stopped dreaming of you months ago,
Now i lay alone,
Wondering how it would feel with you in my arms,
Too thin,
Too much perfume,

Please stop this...