Missing you

Its almost amusing,
The way seeing your picture makes my heart set ablaze,
Partially with agony,
Maybe a little hope,
But most of all,
Rejection,
Left behind,
Fucked up,
Forgotten,
I wonder how you manage,
To look at her after the things you said to me,
At least when i told you i cared,
It wasnt a lie,
I guess you won,
Fooled me with a silver tongue,
I guess we know what your talent is,

Did you ever care,
Or was it all just a sick joke to you?
When you held me close,
And smiled,
Did you know you would forget about me?
Did you know I would fall in love with you?

You almost make me feel bad for you,
While im remembering who you were,
Your too busy being who she turned you into,
Do you know I hate her?
And did you know,
That every time you held me,
I wonder if it felt better to you,
With me or her?

Did you ever wonder how it felt for me,
Being the other girl?
Maybe i never was,
What we had, what does it classify as?
All those lies, it was like you planned it all out
I almost believe you did,

Losing you, it doesnt feel like you walked away,
It feels like you died,
And killed me, taking my heart and burrying it with you,

I dont miss you anymore
I just miss who i thought you were.