Just Another Drug

I want to hate you,
Silver eyes, calling out my name, screaming a reckless song full of empty promises,
Your promised you wouldn't ever leave me,
How could you do this?
I miss you,
Your taste, the way you smelled,
I would give anything,
Just to hear that beautiful, addicting voice,
You are my addiction,
One I cant just give up,
Its been four long months,

Come back to me,
Come back to where I scream, empty arms reaching out and darkened eyes collapsing,
How can you just leave?
Was everything a lie,
All the times your arms snagged my waist,
The way your fingers would touch my lips when I inhaled the nicotine,
Is it because of her?
Why her?
Shes turned you into a monster,
Why don't you see it?
All of us do.

She leaves you,
Not spending enough time with her?
I want to spit in her face,
Shes like a porcelain doll,
Pretty on the outside,
With nothing on the inside,
Shes running you dry, love,
I would kill for a moment with you,
Please come back,

I want to feel your lips on mine,
Just once,
He is not a replacement for yours,
His lips bring joy,
But yours bring wonders of sorrow, agony, and beauty,
So passionate,
Do I love you?
I must say no,
I love him,
But to you, you are my drug,
My secret,
The blood that flows through my veins whispers your name,

Your like a knife,
Cold, unforgiving, and oh so beautiful,
I want to see that smile you save for her,
Directed at me,
Just once,
So I could save that memory,
Call me a masochist,
Call me insane,
But you made me feel again,

You are the best thing to ever cross my life.