The First

My heart banged violently in my chest when you entered that room.
I was scared I was confused.
Why am I sweating and my hands feel all clammy?
Am I dying? God I don't want to Die!
My heart want stop this frantic beating, it want stop.
My pupils are dilating, my eyes are growing wide.
Am I dying? Lord I just want to know why?
I can't move, I'm frozen in my spot.
My face is on fire and man I feel hot.
I'm dying, that's it, that's what's happening to me.
But I'm stilling standing,Lord how can this be.
There's no light or darkness. No I'm still here.
But why is this happening to me, Oh dear.
My little heart its...singing.
It's singing so loud that my chest is moving with the rhythm.
I look at him...is he to blame.
A word is on my tongue...wait...here it comes
.....is it..
Oh God.....
Love.
No it can't be.
But...
Oh, God is this it.
I feel like i'm falling over the edge.
If I can just grab him I might survive.
I'm falling here's my chance.
I reach out, with all my might.
I want it I want this,
I can't fail.
I want it, I need it,
I grab his shirt.
And my heart explodes,
Red from Love.