Can't write about

Hey everytime I to write something happy
It starts out just alittle sappy
Leaks into my earlobe
And gets sticky
Oozes all over the floor
And seeps down 2 to 4
Levels of my
Extended galaxy
Traps up everything
Just trying to get free
All of my little emotions
Running around
Get stuck and turn into my frowny emote
And I'm lost looking for my remote
To click each flashing button
Seeing if one will just have a discussion
With me
About all these trippy silly things
That are going on
All this drama was just started up in here
With me not even realising they have appeared
And as everything turns into sloopy mixed up colors
Im not allowed to give up says my mother
I try day to day to wash out, What I had tryed not to, yet thought about
And as time goes by my defence grows stronger
Im here up in my hood
Sticks and stones
Telephones ready and loaded
To call up my bro's
Who are waiting outside
Way to low to see but if you try something you'll regret not believing me
And when you be fallen down
After all the shit me and you been through
You can think to yourself I might be sorry but I'm just done with you
I told you not to fall in love
Now your stranded like a broken winged dove
And thats what you get, to fall on your ass 'cause you didnt keep your defence up Just like me
Take the numbness
feel the shocks through each electrical string
But I detached them from my body
And sold my soul to the illuminati
So theres nothing left just my body Peace..