I wish

I wish the smell of death would leave me
I wish it would flow up and disappear into the tree’s leaves and then unto the wind
I wish the pain could stop, that I would stop choking on my own tears.
I wish you were here with me so the gaping whole in my heart would fade
There’s a poison on my tongue sweeter than all
I can’t let it fade as it slowly allows me to die
I can’t stay
I must fade away
But this pain is making me stay
Why did you leave?
I’m stretching out my hand
Begging you to stay
I’m not ready for you to go and for me to stay
Take me with you….
I am not afraid if I’m with you