Screwed Up Friendship

Whenever we pass in the hall
Sometimes he acts as if I’m part of the wall
But sometimes we say hi
Though I can tell he means bye
I keep telling him it’s cool
But he must think I’m a fool
I want it to be good between us again
But that’s like entering forbidden territory
I want us to go out
But that’s without a doubt
The farthest thing from his mind
He tells me he’s gay
But I wouldn’t believe him
That’s probably his cover-up for rejecting me
I need to find in myself the key
To being the kinda girl he wants
But I doubt that even if I change
He still won’t rearrange
His feelings for me
I didn’t realize until recently that it’s him I love
Not the popular jerk everyone believes
Sometimes I cry because he refuses to talk
It’s like speaking to a roadblock
Or even a brick wall
but i wish our friendship could be
the way it was
if only he could see
just how much i truly care