Feeling Nothing

She closes her eyes tight
Wanting to get away from this world
She’s covered in herself
In the IV dripping disgusting, fatty calories into her body
In the skin she’s tried to pull off her body
In the bruises around her neck.
She’s filled with herself
Filled with hate for herself
Filled with criticism for herself
Filled with anger aimed at herself
She’s never felt beautiful.
She’s never felt like she was ever worth something
She’s never felt like anybody cared about her
She’s never felt like she could be loved
She hates this horrible world
The one who judges you by your looks and the way you act
Unless you’re skinny, beautiful, and perfect.
You’re nothing in this world.
She’s fat, the voice inside her head says.
She wants to be away from all this.
She wants to be away from this sickening lady telling her she’s severely underweight.
She wants to be away from it all.
She wants to feel nothing
So she slices her veins.
It’s all gone.