Confused In A World Of What-Ifs

Sometimes i feel like i just WANT to feel special.
But Im really not.
Sometimes i feel like i just WANT to feel unique.
But Im really not.
Sometimes i feel like i just WANT the drama i get handed.
But i really don't.

But you all don't know that.
You will never know me.
Because i don't even know me.

Maybe Im really not special.
Or unique.
Maybe Im just a dramaqueen.

But at least i would finally know who i was.
Because not knowing kills me a little bit every day.

Maybe Im smart.
Maybe Im pretty.
I don't know who the hell i am.

How do i figure That out?