Balancing Act of Recovery

I feel like
I’m standing on
shifting ground.

One minute, it’s
IIIIIIIIIsIIoIIlIIiIId –

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII’m eating without
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIImuch thought.

The next, it’s
mIIIIIIIvIIIIIIIn
IIIIIIoIIIIIIIiIIIIIIIg
under
IIIIIIIImy
IIIIIIIIIIIIIfeet.

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIStart thinking calories
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIand weight numbers
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIand, oh god, my stomach
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIdoesn’t curve in anymore.

And then, suddenly –
I’m back to normal.