Everything You Hate

Cuss each other
Loathe each other
Hurt and ignore each other
I want to be the source of your pain
It's a game
And we're playing it over and over again
We won't stop till one of us wins
Or till the other gives up
Which is impossible because
We won't ever stop
We won't admit that we're wrong
We won't say that we're sorry
We'll pretend not to worry
Or care what happens to the other
Cause feeling these feelings will just blow our cover
Do you hate me yet?
Will you hurt me yet?
Will you distress, detest and deceive me yet?
I hang up on you
Won't answer you
Cry and cut over you
The more it hurts, the better it feels
The more that we fight, the more gets revealed
I can see clearly what is going on
But I pretend I don't get it just to keep hanging on
Cause I hate you I do, but I love you as well
And you hate me right back, but it's in love we fell
And I try to play it off like it's nothing to me
But you all that I think and you're all that I see
In my dreams, on the street
Even though I know you're not
It feels like you're there, on every corner, every block
You're me, you're my shadow
Maybe that's why I hate you
Cause I see myself in you
And she's looking right back
And it scares me so much, like she's going to attack
Rip up my soul likes it nothing to her
And we'll never go back to how we once were
We're stuck in this loop, round and around
And I won't stop this feeling till I'm deep in the ground
You're death
I'm a mess
Unstable, unable to see what we are
We can't go back now cause we've fallen too far
You're my drug, a blackness, an thriving infection
You're like a sickness that has no prescrption
You mess up my mind, fuck up my perception
I now see the world as a warped reflection
Perfection? You're it
Even though you're a dick
I'm a bitch
And they judge
And act like they know what this is
But they're wrong and they're thick
They don't know shit
But it still doesn't stop them from acting like pricks
The only people who know us, is us
We're two of a kind, and we feed off our lust
You act suss, I act suss
Theres rarely some trust
Cause we both don't know how long till this busts
Till there is no more us
Only darkness and empty
Of that there'll be plenty
But till then can you keep me?
Can we pretend like this will always be?
Like there won't come a day when you leave me?
Act like there'll only be me?
I know it's a large
Question to ask
But I don't really care
I don't want to share
I want to keep living
In this world that we've made
Where it's just you and I
No one else gets their say
Tell me you hate me
Cause I hate you right back
Tell me you love me
Cause I love you right back
I won't get tired of that
Or of this
When we kiss
It's like everything I've missed
Every single fucking day
Is a challenge in every possible way
You're all I've ever needed
And all I've ever wanted
You're all I've ever loathed
And everyday I'm haunted
By the constant thought of you
And there's so much more to say
But I don't have enough to say it
Just know that you're mine
And no one will ever take that
I want to be everything that you hate
But for now I'll sit on my own and just wait.